I’ve Come Too Far

God I owe you the biggest apology. I made it my business to serve you no matter what no going back, & that’s just what I’ve done. I’ve gotten comfortable and complacent. I’m starting to realize why things keep getting hold of me it’s because that’s the only way I’ll talk to you. It hurts my heart to even have to admit that. I don’t want our relationship to always come from a broken place. Time & time again you have pulled me out of some very low places. I’ve come to a place we’re in seriously tired of running. I want total healing God & no matter what I won’t stop until I’m fully healed. I’ve come too far to give up on you , too far to give up on me. God be my road map on this journey I’m on it’s not easy but you never said that it would be, you only said that it would be worth it. Thank you for being patient with me and allowing me to be me, allowing me to be flawed. & most importantly for allowing me to come back to you. The one thing that I love about you the most is your unconditional love. Thank you for loving me unconditionally especially when sometimes I’m hard to love. I know I get in my own way by distancing myself from you or anything like you & I don’t want to do that anymore. I know what you have for me is for me and it’s bigger than anything I’ve ever imagined I just have to stay focused and get out of my head sometimes. Time to get back to it. Time for a complete healing, no more detours. I’m ready God. I want this. No matter what tries to keep me down I won’t stop believing because I know you got me.

Originally Published: July 19, 2021

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